November 29, 2009

So this past week has been nothing less than hectic.

Countless stupid choices made by people who you thought more of.

Not having the person that you care about by your side.

And just much more.. ugh.

I am just tired of being used.

I'm tired of all the nice things I do for people being taken advantage of.

I believe that I just care too much.

I'm not saying that that is a bad thing because God wants us to care for everybody, no matter who it is.

I just would love to be shown the appreciation that I show others.

I'm there for them when they need me, I listen to them when they are having trouble, and I give them advice on multiple occasions but in return what do I get?

Just a thanks.

Nothing more.

I've had a friend recently who made a decision to do something for herself for once in her life.

At first when she told me about this decision, I was confused and thought that she was only doing it selfishly and because of her boyfriend.

But then I came to realize the actual reason, and now I don't see that as such a bad idea.

I don't know if I have the guts to do something that drastic but I might have no other choice to get the respect that I deserve.

I suppose that we'll see what comes of 2010.

Needless to say, I am so ready to start over.

New surroundings, new people, new state, new everything.

There are a few people that I will miss a lot, and to those people, I love you with all of my heart.

You will never be forgotten.

(I love you, 10/5/08)

November 24, 2009

Wow, what a shame.

It is a real bummer that so many people that have really bright futures are just throwing it down the drain by making stuipid choices.

I just can't believe that the people I have grown up with, have all taken the turn for the worse.

They lie and say they are going to "take a break" to my face and then just continue doing it behind my back. It's pathetic.

Also, something that just needs to be brought out in the open.

Stop trying to act innocent towards me because I'm not buying it. I know everything, so just stop lying. Really trust me when I say that I know everything. Your lies and hypocricy are just getting old and you aren't fooling anybody.

I would love for you to realize this before its too late. You have such a bright future and it doesn't need to be thrown away for stupid "party favors".

doesn't feel appreciated.

at all.

the end.

I hate attention whores.
Also I hate when people never take your side ever.
People who don't act like they care about anybody and people that don't appreciate anybodies feelings...
They need to get over themselves.

I want to be the girl people wow over.

I want to stand out.

I want to be the girl that makes peoples eyes widen when she enters the room.

I want to be the one people run to and say how stunning you look today.

I want to be that girl..

September 20, 2009

you know what feeling i hate the most?

walking into a group of people, and feeling like they have been talking sbout you behind your back, or that they know nore about you then you want them too.

i hate that people do not give a crap about your feelings

and talk about your personal life to others as if it was their life story.

i do not tell many people things, and i do that for a reason.

maybe i need to reconsider who i tell things to now.

because obviously some can't just keep their mouths shut.

oh and before you judge me on what i do in life,

think twice.

what i do is none of your business unless it actually involves you.

oh and another thing,

those that think they know me.

are highly mistaken.

i'm much more complex to figure out.

[i promise]

August 23, 2009

Tomorrow starts a new school year.

Goodness..

mixed emotions on this but the main one would be happy actually.

(..i don't even know what my schedule is! ha, whatever.)

lately my head has been spinning.

i don't think i know exactly the pin point that caused this cycle but i believe that

it has something to do with the fact that sometimes i feel like i care

about people more than they care about me.

i don't know if i'm just going crazy but you just can't help how you feel sometimes.

ugh.