November 29, 2009

So this past week has been nothing less than hectic.

Countless stupid choices made by people who you thought more of.

Not having the person that you care about by your side.

And just much more.. ugh.

I am just tired of being used.

I'm tired of all the nice things I do for people being taken advantage of.

I believe that I just care too much.

I'm not saying that that is a bad thing because God wants us to care for everybody, no matter who it is.

I just would love to be shown the appreciation that I show others.

I'm there for them when they need me, I listen to them when they are having trouble, and I give them advice on multiple occasions but in return what do I get?

Just a thanks.

Nothing more.

I've had a friend recently who made a decision to do something for herself for once in her life.

At first when she told me about this decision, I was confused and thought that she was only doing it selfishly and because of her boyfriend.

But then I came to realize the actual reason, and now I don't see that as such a bad idea.

I don't know if I have the guts to do something that drastic but I might have no other choice to get the respect that I deserve.

I suppose that we'll see what comes of 2010.

Needless to say, I am so ready to start over.

New surroundings, new people, new state, new everything.

There are a few people that I will miss a lot, and to those people, I love you with all of my heart.

You will never be forgotten.

(I love you, 10/5/08)

November 24, 2009

Wow, what a shame.

It is a real bummer that so many people that have really bright futures are just throwing it down the drain by making stuipid choices.

I just can't believe that the people I have grown up with, have all taken the turn for the worse.

They lie and say they are going to "take a break" to my face and then just continue doing it behind my back. It's pathetic.

Also, something that just needs to be brought out in the open.

Stop trying to act innocent towards me because I'm not buying it. I know everything, so just stop lying. Really trust me when I say that I know everything. Your lies and hypocricy are just getting old and you aren't fooling anybody.

I would love for you to realize this before its too late. You have such a bright future and it doesn't need to be thrown away for stupid "party favors".